MY BIPOLAR MOTHER

I am the daughter of a bipolar mother. My experiences with my mother, family, and friends teach me everyone's reality is different and perception is the friend or the foe of the day. I am hoping my posts give insight to those who are curious and give comfort to those who see a parallel. I invite feedback and look forward to collaboration. It is my focus to spread joy, even on dark days. Smiles can be effortless or the workout of the day. Thanks for reading!

Tuesday, June 30, 2020

bipolar person loosing cellphone, bipolar person leaving group therapy




You & Bob were very generous then my home Now is no longer my home &  is ALL in a jumble my calendar and Recovery Board on dining table. Just put there and NO ONE ASKS WHY I LEFT IT. Honestly do you want to prove Garland Behavioral Health Staff right? They believe I am leaving Out Patient too soon but they do not connect with us in our Real Life like having to move only year and 8 months since last move. And must move now cause I cannot afford $1561.odd cents PLUS $1850.00. I am worried they will evict me in few months with all copays on medical bills! 3 days gets me $19000 meds bill and my part is $1400.00. So I am not panicked over cell and cannot text you I am panicked cause THEY WILL STILL SEND ME A ZOOM LINK AND IF CANNOT REACH ME BY CELL OR YOU THEY WILL CALL 911 TO HAVE ME PUT BACK IN-PATIENT and I cannot pay first one. I am on thin ice here. You have DPOA and they have signed agreement YOU OR THEY can put me back in on involuntary commitment and I need attorney I cannot afford to get out to where? Stoneleigh is history and where I am going can refuse me cause open record if go in by forced 911. Success means little if I end up ruined over stupid missing cell phone. I am done for night & you will probably never see this email and blame me if GBH calls 911 to have me placed in hospital. My cell phone on black tray table & now it’s MISSING. My success going to Waterford depends on me finding it Fat chance I have looked whole house over even trash

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Your weather tech back seat mats will arrive FedEx today already done and paid Visa I owe Visa $498 for last bed which went over budget by $400 I owe You & Bob for labels office supplies shower chair & appliance cart & more Please have total today so I can write you a check Never mind med bills which I still need face from Baylor S&W plus same from Garland BH I do NOT want you & Bob paying for moving clothes plus especially if Visa credit charges Remember Bob also paid for mat & throw I owe you for that too Moving just costs and usually more than budgeted Moving costs kept my Dad broke until he decided trade our mobile home for down payment on Dora and assume home mortgage the guy no longer afford Later when his job at Bell Helicopters ended here and meant a transfer to California he started HK with $50K from his Dad’s safety deposit box and his savings from US Savings bonds friendship of guy who also told him his wife needed get job and help out at least for her pricy shopping Like shoes & more shoes! Mother older less abusive w only Liz & Dad tolerated no more child abuse cause he knew she could not put Bro & I up for adoption since Bro in military & I went to UNT and later married. Daddy cared for his children and Liz as very youngest got the childhood home until 24 when she married Tim. By that & hiring his son he got keep his children close except for me but did come back visit a lot because of him & my siblings Mother passed away still abusing me mostly verbally but by then I knew she had OCD and dyslexia plus severe anxiety disorder She died undiagnosed if all especially Alzheimer’s cause it scared her I am not self sacrificing I just take care of Famiky like Daddy like doing all done thru years and...I cannot even pay for myself? Some & left from Mother’s sale oil stocks She owes me some compensation Just repay yourselves & prove via bank print out you did plus cost of Bob’s dental surgery Pay off your credit cards NOW Please including what you spent on me! It’s all funny $ anyway because Covid 19 Pay it off! My IRA brokerage acct gone $90K to back almost $75K The USA πŸ‡ΊπŸ‡Έ is broke

Pay off your debts & make Biz work like Gpa Me I just want out Texas to Vancouver WA Canada πŸ‡¨πŸ‡¦ to mild year round climate but guess I am broke & stuck in Texas credit to coronavirus! Love πŸ’• YouπŸ’œπŸŒ»





Will be ready at 3:30 for Dr plus found the container touch up paint for Corolla use for scratches etc from parking lot doors etc Nice touch up paint Will finish packing today & now staring day laundry w new sheets bedding Hope guess right in pkg sheets in If not will put in black bag you brought PAY YOUR BILLS VISA ETC MR KIM BILLS MY GRANDPA ALWAYS SAID PAY YOURSELF FIRST AND STAY OUT DEBT! That’s how debt free for 14 years It is not good when hospitals try make $ off me!

$19K for maybe $3K in Meds for 3 days???? See U at 3:30πŸ’œπŸŒ»πŸ’œπŸ‘✅πŸ’œπŸŒ»πŸ’œ



Maybe if I saw men as prime real estate & meal ticket like my Mother-she never really loved anyone but herself and 2 oldest granddaughters and You especially I actually enjoyed seeing my Mother be generous & kind to You. YOU did stay over at Dora without Gpa Liz and then Pepper who bit her for starting lawnmower when you were right there I was sad to hear Pepper passed away not liking NOLA or you growing up I’d have taken him back if I could. πŸΆπŸ’œπŸΆπŸ’œ





I’d marry old guy old like me who’d buy me a cottage in Vancouver! On island w ferry and walking trails Fat chance as look how long took beautiful Trish to remarry! Tell Bob to buy some lotto tickets from Marge at Texaco in me! We win you can buy my Bro out renovate HK bldg or find 2nd location & give that one to Eric and most all buy me a Vancouver cottage 800 sq ft will do Thank You Bob’s lucky #s coming Big Chief White Cloud agrees! Go for it!πŸ€πŸ’°πŸ’°πŸ’°πŸ€πŸ€πŸ€πŸ‘πŸ‘



Judi,

It was wonderful having you in group. You are a spitfire and a joy! You have worked very hard on your recovery and I have no doubt that you will find your balance. I will put your official discharge date as 6/29/2020. Let me know if you have any further needs.

-Jennier





Dorothy,
Please delete ZOOM IOP GBH group link from my email.  I will be moving to my assisted living apartment and community starting Tuesday June 30, 2020.
I have keys to my new apartment home and must vacate my former apartment as I gave notice to move via My daughter Stephaney (Zoe)  who represents me in contracts and financially with a Durable Power of Attorney made legal by my Attorney and notarized in her office. Also Zoe represents me by way of a Medical Power of Attorney and can confirm I have a solid prevention relapse Plan and plan for recovery from manic psychosis and consequent manic mood stability guided by my mental health team Dr. Onadeko MD Psychiatrist and Dr. Chauhan PHD therapist plus safety and security offered by Mesquite The Waterford that provides fall risk prevention, daily structured activities like art, games like puzzles, on site movie room, community dining for 3 meals Daly (served in our apartments now with Covid 19 safety measures), exercise classes and shuttle service to doctors only at this time and most important 2 wellness checks a day to assure my attendance at community activities.
I know it may take time to staff, write up my release to personal mental Health care and delete Group ZOOM link. Please affirm by email or phone contact that I have transitioned out IOP GBH mental health services to private care.
Thank you again for helping us,
Respectfully,






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