got this text at 7:50 this morning from my Mother. We are in the process of putting this 70 year old lady into an assisted living facility at the beginning of July 2020.
Everyday we get between 10 - 25 text messages plus numerous phone calls even though she knows that I am at work and need to work to provide for my family.
Goals
1 Share briefly with Group title of one of my favorite books “Don’t
Sweat the Small Stuff and It’s All Small Stuff” published in 1997 by Dr.
Richard C. that inspired me to write a wickedly satirical “book” titled
“Everything Is a Tragedy...It’s ALL Tragic” to calm and quiet my racing
thought, replace with healthy thoughts. Book was “authored” by Mrs. Charlotte K
(my Mother who as negative role model taught her children to prepare for worst
outcome.) I dedicated my book to Helen Keller who said “Life is a daring
adventure or nothing. I also was “ghost writer” who wanted to remain unknown in
case she found it. I had it bound like nice book at Ginny’s Bookstore. I soon
had 9 editions what better way as a “bookworm” to liberate myself from her
negativity-
12Th edition Written in North Carolina some of her incredible
negative zingers-
EVERYTHING IS A TRAGEDY TO HER BECAUSE
-The dryer belt broke -The dog ate her corn dog -The patio furniture
soaked with rain because my Dad (or me if been there) left covers off to keep
dry etc etc etc
2 Have fun today before my 4pm appointment with my therapist Dr.
Chauhan
Do blue dog art except he’s also a bull dog more of My humor
3 Laugh Belly laugh 10 times at myself for thinking nice guy mows
and fertilizes grass was guy from past trying to kill me with poison
fertilizer. My daughter Zoe had to explain that one to me.
4 . Admit in group I actually yelled with Dr. Abraham as a witness
“LET ME OUT OF HERE OR I WILL REPORT YOU FOR MEDICARE FRAUD FOR KEEPING ME
AGAINST MY WILL!” She has a great laugh like yours and quick come back to
patients at deep end of mania-she laughed and said “Oh Judi your’re not here
against your will. You voluntarily signed yourself into GBH. Don’t you
remember?”
SYMPTOMS
Depressed 1
Angry 1
Stressed 7 had PTSD flashback
Anxious 7 see above
Panic attack one see above
Sleep got worse see above 4 hours
Appetite too much cause Risperdone Trying maintain weight with my
diabetes plate going bed by 9pm and exercise re PT taught me
NOT APPLICABLE until below
PTSD one episode
Meds working with same side effects for Risperdone
Taking all meds
Having moderate mood swings
Do NOT want harm or hurt self or others
No nightmares
I am making progress
Therapy is helping
Rest symptoms cut off
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