Oh I see I CHOSE to move & set myself back $11561-it’s only
less than US dollars So I can set myself up for OK having paid $11561 for “free
month”
Even tho my short term memory still goes & comes back on whim
even I can see that as a colossal loss $
Should I rationalize this loss by saying my own savings well spent
& it’s just Grandma’s $
It’s my Dad’s too & he’d want more value you for my
inheritance & add to it Stoneleigh never mind the positive emails will RUIN
my credit! No credit rating or possibility of choices like leasing anywhere.
What did You think- I want home for more than 21 months at time The WF is NOT
home It’s ridiculous 1 room that is smaller than my dorm room except oh great
the laundry in same floor not 1st floor
I have better hopes than this NO ONE CHECKS ON ME
NO ONE INTRODUCED AN “AMBASSADOR”
So far for $11,561 except for 2 shuttle rides I have done it all
myself
Do you know how frustrating it is to sample veggie selection &
know TOO MUCH SALT so in trash it goes! I ate last my veggies yesterday except
for tiny tomatoes I finished today
Why how am I better off here?
It seems soon just convenient for my immediate family-
No need take off to provide rides to doctors So far feel I can
drive myself BUT I cannot afford another dollar toward place does NOT come
through ALL promised & I pay price literally & out of my dwindling
wallet
Oh I do write NO SALT PLEASE
TOO BAD ALREADY MADE FOR ALL TOO MUCH SALT OR DO NOT EAT DR IQBAL
BE IMPRESSED & EXTRA WEIGHT & IT’S ALL MY DOING EVEN HEALTHY CHOICE
OPTION TOO SALTY
IF IT SOUNDS TOO GOOD BE....It is a rip off- & I pay for it
Please do not text me proselytizing suggestions as I may have had
rough few months yet I can still function well in my financial life &
making most w decor & treasures & Art that help me know here I am again
starting over for TOO many times to name yet past 30 years I relied on myself
& solely myself to buffer my tattered life with solid savings, zero debt
& nice place to live & most of time nice car. Do you have any idea what
Birthday car meant to me after first Corolla was totaled & Yaris was my
step down car from 2010 to 2018! You diminish me by leaps & bounds with
“lecture texts” about choices yet you dance around that choices remain limited
for me realistically & financially due to one more relapse-this cost me my
financial stability along with my family regarding me like I never faced
challenges in my life-21 moves counting this one, 4 assaults all life changing
& doing it mostly on my own financially because my Dad could only afford
two family members he supported & cared for -one for 70 years & other
for 65 or 66 years plus doing extras for his youngest child. As a single child
I wonder if you know what it’s like to be as fiercely independent as I’ve been
through 3 in patient stays starting over at work & letting go people who
cannot deal well with a severe neurological disorder-some in my family. I have
no plans to accommodate a sibling who verbally abused me multiple times &
verbally abused a parent that just needed say “good bye” & collect some
memories what left & some dusty mementos.
Never again do I want to hear Bob M -himself estranged from
some family & not ever sought counseling for his abuse-Tell me I will
regret not making contact with my abusive brother-That is awkwardness of you
being in business with Bro-little objectivity & lots lets just smooth it
over. One last time “Blood is not thicker than water when abuse is involved.”
Somehow I find myself compromising my own views & beliefs to
& for what with You & Bob. People who’ve lost as much as I have relish
& need home WE CHOSE-not home others choose & just tell us we have
power & choices to....
We do not have those magical powers-NEVER did I move myself during
a relapse for a year or more after. I am ripped to shreds by this
move-sometimes I think I go along with your choices FOR ME out of guilt. NO
MORE-& now know both You & Bob have no idea how much you harmed &
set back my recovery-for 30 years I counted on providing myself with financial
stability & two iof you ended that in few short weeks.
I am in tatters mentally spiritually emotionally AND NOW financially.
My success now is not in my favor. I am OK with Gonzales & Iqbal. I do like
Onadeko. Rest I did to appease You-Chauhan NOT match for me & I have many
more years than you to know that. As to DPOA-I have regrets as decisions made
has left me bankrupt metaphorically. Take $20K & car so I can feel I in
some way gave you compensation for what-relapsing during Covid 19? In your
home. Never contemplated our relationship might fracture yet give my kind
Bi-polar long enough...I do not care label hang on me today yet I am more than
a label. Honestly I have lost myself plus core of my family all get is a text
with emojis like maybe what I have is contagious. And condescending offer 4-6
each Thursday and seem get more out of doing chores CVS & etc than am I really
still connected to you in any meaningful way. I did read Margot Kidder’s
daughter gave up on her cause BP is an unforgiving Bitch that can demolish
what’s left. Just why shove me into a place that is so not healing or
responsive to me? Convenience? Done? Not sure what do next? Why tell me you
consulted legal counsel & did not-Now I’m mired in Stoneleigh financial
mess & Covid gives you reason to hand it off to me & walk away. Give
what’s left nest egg back? I’m left hurt & confused
Texts will not help. You have NOT called since drives home from
Waco. I’m in less than place for Your convenience & especially Bob’s. How
long has it been since you can risk telling me The Truth. Did You think Bro
could deliver The Shocking News better. I did not pry tho asked every now &
then about Bob’s possible new jobs. Bro’s version was like a Mental Nuclear
Bomb- Bob’s been working at HK 17-18 mos according to Bro. Of course he’d had
few alcoholic beverages nite before & huge hangover. Then I take you to
Kearney’s to celebrate you leaving Dwyer Group as IF no opportunities yet for
job-that was Wednesday & on Friday you’re working at HK. So here it is-you
CHOOSE be in business w someone who verbally abused his Mother-she’s 88 soon
89-and does NOT see her again until nearly her death; he keeps HK like living
memorial, says a lot negative about Bob to me, says you’re like his daughter
& you’re the new PREZ of HK-honestly I thought I’d ended up in episode of
Twilight Zone- who what actually reality check here-NOTHING from you not even
when at Kearny’s & this “secret biz arrangement “ going on since 2017?
Somewhere or when is a disconnect that suggests our relationship has been
strained far longer than I knew-cause at Kearney’s you say not word that in two
days Friday you will officially work at HK with man who will or says who will
not welcome your Father to visit you at work. Now I’m in place so detrimental
to my health & you tell me to make it work. When rash hurried decision move
WF & SL financial fallout finally settles I want what’s left of my nest egg
back & WHEN SHIT COVID FINALLY ALLOWS ME OUT HERE I am moving to either
small town outside of Vancouver, Indy (Indianapolis) or Taos NM-it’s like you
adventuring to Taipei in 1986 & I supported your CHOICE even when another parental
unit said just “following a boy” when I knew you were actually following your
dream! And 30 years later..... I expect you to support me following my dream!
You’re right-I can CHOSE for myself & realize I may not see you
for....cause I plan not to fly there but see country with my mover-Bob can
relax cause it’s NOT you.
You’re FREE of me after 30 years helping me through hell & for
some strong reason I see NO relapse in WA IN or NM at least not for another 25
years & by then I will be w Elvis, If ALL get until I move is 4-6 on
Thursdays-then I take it! No road trip for you this time. My fondest memories
of my Adult Daughter was trip to NC & back from GA plus time in NC from 06
to 2012. It’s been hard on us all since. Bob needs you & you’re like Gpa-a
natural caretaker. When Bob did his you’re going to be end of my wife &
I’ll be a widower I did NOT cross him-you mean world to him & it’s time for
me go away & THIS IS MY LAST MOVE! To watch sun set & rise over waters
around Vancouver I hope- better find support group there & people help me
get there!
I am NOT flying to my New Last Home-Maybe wherever BNSF can take
me, my loving creatures, my art including All Bob Art, & what’s left of my
furniture. I bet I can ship my treasures & new bed & you can have your
chair back & royal blue chair-I’ll take pillows art my plush animals my
clothes you got me & I’ll order new tops before I go-I want more than a
vacation & regrettably I cannot go to Canada-no connections there tho have
stellar mental health network compared to here & more affordable doctors
& scrips. If something happens to HK or you are welcome to get away &
live with me. Please bring Travis & Jordan-they can savor a “pot” garden
with no repercussions. I AM LEAVING TEXAS-I NEVER CHOSE TO LIVE HERE-WISH I’D
MOVED US WHEN YOU WERE YOUNG BUT THERE WAS DADDY TO CONSIDER & LATER YOUR
FRIENDS & SCHOOL. I AM OK YOU ARE NATIVE TO TEXAS & WANT TO STAY HERE.
THANK YOU FOR ALLOWING ME TO LIVE WITH YOU IN NC & GA & NOW IT’S TIME
FOR ME TO LEAVE ALL HERE & GO HOME TO VANCOUVER-I DO NOT THINK INDY OR TAOS
WILL WORK-I TORE OUT PART OF MY BECOMING JOURNAL CAUSE ALL ABOUT MY MOVE &
DID NOT WANT TO HURT YOUR FEELINGS & YOU’RE DONE HELPING ME THRU BP
RELAPSES-IT!S TIME FOR YOU TO QUIT. IF COVID GOES OUT BOUNDS HERE I KNOW YOU
WANT STAY NO MATTER...I AM SORRY I CANNOT PROTECT YOU & NEEDED TO REALIZE
THAT LONG TIME AGO-TRULY YOU ARE DONE-I WILL MANAGE ANY FURTHER SETBACKS &
THINK ABOUT IT
OUR FAMILIES HAVE BEEN SCATTERED SINCE DAD DIED
LIZ PREDICTED IT WE’RE ALL ON OUR OWN-THAT IS LESS SCARY THAN
BEING STUCK AT WATERFORD IT’S JUST NOT FOR ME THAT’S WHY I NEVER DROVE IN &
INQUIRED THIS PLACE GIVES ME THE HEEBIE JEEBIES PLEASE HELP ME GET OUT BY FALL
Zoe🌷🌷
I am sorry for my texts that need go in my journal like Nanny gave
me many years ago
I give You much credit for all your decisions during and after
while I am trying to recover.
I do feel frustrated but not alone in that my setting myself up
for spring & summer success & trip to Vancouver to check out living
there never came about.
Your counsel & wisdom mean a lot & I know I can only try
make peace with aftermath of moving & what it cost or will cost.
It appears my health insurance mostly covers if not entirely
covers cost of hospital stays & the out patient group which of course is
big relief & great news. I am concerned GBH in-patient bill has not posted
or billed yet while out patient bills finally being paid. I will sign onto
Medicare today to see if find out more & put medical bills behind me.
I am unsure about Stoneleigh & delay. Perhaps holding off
until August 11th my last day 60 day notice to vacate. I do not know
Your kindness & perseverance mean more than...I understand if
you prefer to quit on my behalf.
I have fully paid Visa, still have Weather Tech credit yet post,
plan no more bills beyond ATT & water bill. Will not buy few tops &
essentials until all settles. I have 2nd direct deposit coming on day WF drafts
$1850-plenty to cover it now & my account will see more $ w DD on 8-3.
It’s all such shock it’s hard to understand. Honestly I cannot
afford WF plus doctors scrips few groceries. I am scared for my finances. I
know you meant well & to lease anywhere else I will need pay SL what they
demand. All my efforts keep nest egg above $100K just nearly there....
Take care. I worry for you as Covid back rate like worst. You
& Travis & Jordan are my all.
I tried w Bob & failed.
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