angry text messages, pissed off mother,

After weekend of looking at my finances & working around fried fatty food w high salt & carbs w limited success, I first want my nest egg restored to my savings & your name removed when feasible from any of my accounts given I live in hotel like building with 6 Covid cases. My Will & beneficiary designations protect you & assure you inherit. I no longer concern myself about tax impact as that was futile since you moved $96K without consulting HR Block or a tax attorney. Right now I owe zip on medical bills & my big debt is SL & no point revisiting that one with most of my furniture gone, my credit rating in jeopardy so I’ve decided to pay whatever they bill to keep my ability to lease elsewhere. I will be moving from here tho how w 6 Covid cases? I feel trapped and see few advantages to ever living here as food unhealthy per my doctors subsequently without ability to walk & stay active, weight gain after worked hard to decrease my health risks & weight have not been sustainable. I still do not understand why you moved so quickly to relocate me here. Was home care not working for you & they do NOT check on me. It’s a marketing farce-“A Place for Mom.” TV ad.

There is a Hawaii Newborn Blessing-“Your children are not your children. You cannot make them like you because life goes forward. They are the arrow that takes us all to the future.”

Ironically I reared You to be You & laugh when ready. I backed you in Taipei & other choices you made. Why no reciprocal gift to me?

If you feel or anyone has made you feel too involved with me & my well being, I release you.

If 6 cases Covid do not bother you, then I find no roadblocks to my assuming responsibility for what 92K or 90K & it was my mistake to ask you to assume the burden of making major decisions about my life when you do not know me all that well. Neurological disorder quite challenging has not stopped me from making it across 25-30 years & I regret to be such burden or project for you. Whether we heal this difference in what best for me I am not doing well here-I am going backwards again, isolated & feeling trapped in a poor match for a home for me. It’s time to join Elvis if all have look forward to is tiny room that is claustrophobic & demeaning. Bingo is not my plan for a vibrant future. We women are so devalued even women in our own family do not ask us what is best for us.

I am wasting health insurance $ seeing doctors that cannot improve the quality of my life. Do you know what it took out of me to give away my home furnishings just 19 months old & pack up day after day what little was left of my life & move to place where people more challenged than me? It’s best I can do to take care of myself. A more shyster business than owning & being “landlord” of apartments is to own in quotes thru decades nursing homes, assisted living homes to retirement homes to so called independent living-maybe for those couples & few men still have their own cars & can simply drive to CVS now has more scrips but will NOT take my Visa card # or deliver. I am done in by stupid catch 22s & cannot even find convoluted workarounds. Enjoy the car-that was my Bday car in 2018 and now....I am literally a foot note in a pathetic place mostly for women. I appreciate by Monday you telling me when my nest egg is in my account & your name off what I consider my private business which appears you have liberally shared with your husband- my retirement income, nest egg & Brokerage account is none of his business. I am removing his name from emergency contact list. I want to leave your name but I do not know your requirements & please no more gratuitous texts about choices-I have few at this time.

I AM NOT YOUR 97 YEAR OLD GRANDMOTHER RECEIVING HOME CARE FOR NUMBER OF YEARS OR YOUR GRANDMOTHER WHO DIED OF ALZHEIMER RELATED FLU AT 89. The old bitty Aunt in Little Women is still spot on today

Wealth is ALL protects older women from being herded off to a “retirement home” “ forgotten

Bob and I are a part of your recovery support team! We will continue to care very much about You💜 It’s very hurtful to read your texts.

I appreciate your saying you’re part of my recovery team. It was hurtful to me & Jennifer Metze made a good case for not making big changes like moving or being involved in such changes left me vulnerable & feeling few healthy options for me & too many setting me back-fried chicken fried fish cheeseburger w fries & tomorrow fried crab cakes

That leaves me selecting same baked chicken breast over salted, turkey patty too much salt & over seasoned fish. I have written “Please no salt or added salt” cause even veggies to much salt. My plan tomorrow is either frozen entree or Glucerna in defense of my efforts to eat healthy.

I am not going to text any gratuitous words so take care of yourself & try not to overwork yourself💚

I hope you understand I cannot move forward without financial resources. If the compromise here is home health services I agree. Please also understand at time you negotiated my “lease”? here month to month & arranged notice to vacate my home I found to be a home even with minuses like this place although no Covid cases especially 6, I definitely was not well enough & should have stayed in my former home to level. Although I will not ever understand why you went against the counsel of my mental health professionals, it’s not fixable to reset. I want out of here when it is open again & I will site 6 Covid cases as my grounds for leaving. The the total cost so far is $5,261 to WF for upfront fee & 60 days to bale out of here. Then to where cause I’m ruined at SL even paying whatever they request. Also it would be nice to focus on recovery vs moving again w 2 years-that’s third place. I do not mean anything negative toward Bob but he listens to people like Carl who’s Father is in his 80s or older & applies that to me someone much younger. I am still in shock & not gaining momentum due to this mismatch & lack consideration that I know what will be match for me. Bob went on & on when we toured here that “Carl said....” as IF GUY WHO DOES NOT EVEN KNOW ME GETS MORE INPUT THAN I DO. You have placed me at higher risk than SL only here few weeks.

Now I expect us -You & I only-to remedy this in next few months. I gave away most of my furniture & while people like Home Nurses both of them comment on decor they also asked how I ended up in such tiny place-I ask same. Can you not understand how demeaning it is that I cannot even buy healthy groceries. I can only make toast here by way-electrical cannot handle both big HDTV & my baking. It’s glorified warehouse for mostly women & not a match for me. I am not candidate for “A Place for Mom” like TV as.

If I regret any of my decisions relative to you over last few years it’s DPOA which I plan to void-thanks to rushed decisions this will probably end up costing me $15000 or $20000. For what? To keep SL from billing me $6500+? That decision was yours. What in long run did you save me from?

So far health providers covered medical bills. Who did you listen to here? The only losses so far ones you caused w SL then backed out representing me & now like Guy in Group because you furnished these letters NO ONE IS LIKELY TO LEASE TO ME! It is an ugly alarming label-biggest cluster F of my whole 30 years of balancing labels, diagnoses & trying to protect my privacy. Try living & finding new place with that as in public record

Where did my kind protective daughter go?

I am appreciative of ALL You & Bob did arranging movers, your efforts with the window coverings from one place to another plus all the CVS drive thrus, TT pick ups & all online & personal shopping for the beautiful new clothes.

My dilemma is how sad I feel with losing my view of independence-even walking to CVS to pickup more scrips which is not an option right now. While I do PT room exercise I am minus my walking which really helped keep me level & maintain my weight.

I am too fragile from move to even begin trying relocate.

I appreciate you screening for bills & am confused about GBH Billings now totaling almost $12000 with my part being $2750 per BCBS. I am lucky that majority of medical bills have been covered 100% with some scrips & Drs copays. Given current Billings total $38700 per BCBS. Medicare I need revisit later. So far show no amount due then not sure all GBH been billed. Do I need Medicare billing advocate to understand full Billings & if any still not addressed? I am tapped out of energy for reading all bills & appears most billed GBH. Still think GBH in patient billing yet to be processed by either Medicare or BCBS & $2750 for GBH in patient only & why bill like they do? $8750 for 6-1 & $1500 week with no amount due from me for 5/27 to 5/29 leaving bills for 4 additional weeks. It’s confusing.

Anyway Fatima swept & swiffer mopped all my place plus cleaned kitchen sink. Rest cleaned myself plus moving what needed to do floors like mat.

You probably do not want know details & SL will bill by email & to my WF address per email I forwarded to you. They refuse to recognize your acting as my DPOA.

I am pretty worn out & will try not send hurtful texts tho I am down & feel defeated here. I did at least find workaround for breakfast & lunch today.

At least take care & break. Do NOT deliver CVS scrips 2nd Risperdone & Hydrochlorothyazide cause I have plenty.

Fingers crossed we all get break here🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀💚