tough day at the retirement home, complaining about everything, playing the smallest violin

 

It's so difficult transitioning from being an independent person: I don't know how others are dealing with loved ones in this situation, but I know there are a lot of us in the same boat.

I just wish she would put her negativity to a more useful solution like embracing her community, making friends and just participating in the daily activities that this fantastic community has to offer.  To this day, she had NOT made one effort to attend any safe functions.  She will not interact with anyone!  This is really not too surprising as she has been doing this her whole life.  A hermit playing the smallest violin.

Today I miss ALL of my life that is gone-Hair to Wear, my own laundry just for me, my car, my relatively new sofa lamp bed chair more space that costs a lot less than worst place I have ever lived as an adult. I feel cheated out of my privacy, decent food, spaces to decorate for season ALL GONE

WHY? JUST BECAUSE I & EVERYONE ELSE MISSED HELPING BEFORE....I AM DONE!!!! I LIVE IN ONE DINKY DOO ROOM IN AN OVER BLOWN PLACE W S*** FOR FALSELY CLAIMED AMENITIES.

WASTING $2K A MONTH & 10 GRAND BLOWN ON NOTHING!

IT’S WORST KIND OF POINT THAT MY FAMILY HAS NO USE FOR ME AT ALL SO SHOVE ME OFF ON CRAP PLACE THAT COSTS $2K MONTH WHICH MEANS I HAVE ZILCH WOMEN ABUSED MORE THAN & WOMEN LIKE ME EXTRA

 

(her cleaning service knocked at her door, but she didn't pay any attention; consequently they unlocked and opened the door.) 

Briefly maybe I did not define “lack of privacy”-In NO WAY did anyone ever come in my place wherever I lived before without knocking & asking my permission. More than just handy man has master keys. Today staff did NOT KNOCK & tried to come in my room w master key. Do you know how I feel living here????????????? -LACK PRIVACY & more like a punishment & it’s humiliating! I do not care about pandemics. I care about my privacy my dignity & my safety.

I do NOT have that here!!!!!!

I WANT OUT OF HERE. I should NOT be in here with my privacy a joke, humiliated in bathroom

WHY DO YOU WANT ME IN SUCH AN AWFUL PLACE? You have locks security cameras & some assurance of privacy.

I AM DONE HERE HOWEVER WHATEVER WHENEVER.....

 

Please do not call anyone on this as it will just make it worse for me. This is just business not a home

 

Only I should have key to my place. But NOT here! They can come in anytime!!!!! No matter how embarrassing

 

 

Just an Update-I went out walking on 3rd floor. People are restless & wearing masks below nose. I am honoring distance & 2 masks tho they want to talk so I do stop to talk

& all wishing no more.

Bill put on a lot pounds. Tho he asks for 2 & 3 servings I hope 🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀I do not put on so much w just 1 serving & no desserts. The chicken breast was fried but no hint when ordered. I ate it w peas & Rosemary potatoes no bread or dessert. I love lemon 🍋 in my drink & ate it later. It was like dessert. Please take care as much as you can🥰🤗💜🌻

having a tough day at the retirement community

 

Hi😊Flu shot done ✅ w piano music. It was sad because most were not able to fill out their paperwork or find their Medicare card. I do not fit in well here just based on what I can do & really need place for those who have what I tackle each day. I am fish without water & wonder where Group homes are fro people like me & my age. I expressed appreciation to the Walgreens team of 3 and thanked them for doing a good deed for us as it was slow for most & took way an over hour.

I patiently listened to music & did stretches & meditation. I cried some as it was so sad to see so many floundering & not wanting to wait, interrupt & ask if go now. Some did not answer when called. Jenn had get them. It’s a high energy job. Lots cannot manage the 6 ft or wearing masks while waiting. The staff here is overworked. Most barely able....Wonder if I will just melt away like most, fall asleep & not know where I am. I am just painting a picture so know what it is like here.

Dorothy’s son does give her nice gifts which I am glad. She wore her new pretty jacket cause just getting flu shot is an event. Times are hard. I complimented both Jenny & Paula who had to “direct traffic”. I worry they work too hard & too many hours. I think Paula felt I’d ask her to do more so I thanked her instead  for her tips. Neither had break this week & I’d call this “flu shot marathon”. All time waiting said at least I did this without imposing on You🍀🍀🍀🍀 Take Care please💜💜🌻🌻💜💜🌻🌻🌻Lots Lysol spray for around in small room for shots.

I am doing laundry today so I can have few days to recoup movies 🎥 & books 📚

 

Please do not spend anymore of my little bit of money on anything I am done with this place The last 3 meals awful I am done with people wasting my money like I have no choices so what’s point Please stop buying me anything It’s just an embarrassment like I am some kind of child Please quit This is no decent life at all Mary is decorating her own place for Fall That is independence I have NONE

 

I am sorry if I offended you. I cannot lie about the mediocre food or less than place. Please just give me a break.

 

Sorry but here it is-I ate only a part of lunch. 5th awful meal. Mushy salty overcooked Italian green beans & turkey patty also salty. How am I supposed to stay healthy & meet my health goals. My mouth is so salty just from “alternate” choice. I once ate no salt/low sodium now I have NO CHOICE. Even the tuna fish salad-3rd time in just few days to get around chicken fried steak Swedish meatballs w salty sauce egg noodles etc. I know cause I tried them. I am asking for baked chicken breast NO SALT SEASONING BUT SALT ALREADY IN CHICKEN! Either carbs or salt. My health is going downhill eating like this especially carbs & not enough fresh veggies if any. I cannot control food offered here even the less than alternates. I am losing out on my health initiatives & agreement w Drs to eat by the “My Plan” w half veggies & do not look forward to meals except cereal & oatmeal breakfast. My hard earned money goes to less than nothing here.

I’d do better in my own place doing my own healthy meals. It is awful to eat salty food & too few vegetables or nice salads. I once bought tuna low sodium before here & sure did not have eat it over & over again. I am now unhealthy because of food served here. It sounds like excuses if I tell dr. I was within good self care & taking care of me to question food here. What can I look forward to when meals so unhealthy & unappetizing. Safe means little if my health declines due to poor food loaded with carbs salt & sugar which I watch & lackluster repeat meals. I only count on breakfast here & break my no salty fat carb foods rule on Friday. I feel few good choices here. Lots salty food & pasta etc. Nothing goes without salt even say no salt which I gave up on tho I am trying for tomorrow AGAIN. What about decent veggies & not same ones most time. Not only food less than no variety & never enough veggies colorful fresh & NO SALT. This is no good for me here & “safe” has little to offer without appetizing healthy food-I will not bother you again as neither one of us can change this place.

A HARD WEEKEND AT THE ASSISTED LIVING FACILITY

Over the weekend my mother called me 29 times, most of which I did not answer.  I did have a 40 minute call with her to discuss her living situation and basically told her that this was the safest place for her to live; especially during the Covid 19 pandemic.  She yelled and demanded her car; money; and for me to help her find a different facility.  She also said that she is going to cancel all her Doctor's appointments!  
Ever since I was a kid, I wanted ONLY the best for my mother.  I know she battles this disease on a daily basis and really struggles through life.  I just need her to understand that everything we do for her is for her safety.  Well, the conversation escalated and my mother HUNG up on me again.  I have explained that if she chooses to use me as her doormat and hangs up on me, I will choose not to answer her calls or text messages for a few days.

Here are some of her text messages for this past weekend.  When I did not answer her calls, her text messages changed.  

This awful place does not support health or nutrition. No more-I cannot be warehoused like unwanted furniture. NO PRIVACY HERE! I need privacy to live well. Light comes in all around door during night & many noises & voices off on during day. Food is not even well balanced. There is NO need waste money on doctor’s Appts or meds or tests. I am done. I do not believe you want what is best for me & I am left shattered over how you already made decisions without really working with me or caring what is best. No more platitudes please like there are people who want eat rotten bananas. I am done here. Either please help me out of here or your plan to warehouse me becomes a self fulling prophecy of ill health & I do not even have a shred of dignity left. How can you do this to me? I never ever treated you like this -putting you somewhere that is so miserable & no decent way to live. Why? I want out of here sooner better. Every single day here is just one more day of poor health. I cannot do this anymore. I am guessing you will just ignore my requests for better home like I had before & are ok I live miserably. This place is filled with lapses & nothing for me. I am defeated here.

(here is a picture of the rotting banana that she complained about.)

Please call me later around 9

I need your help I keep trying then .... Please I try

I am so sorry it’s been so hard & rough. I did not intend any hard times for you from the beginning to now. I have consistently given you credit for your gifts & help. I want to keep you in my life & value you even with hard times lately. Please give me a chance.

I am beyond sorry because I do cherish all you have done & do & wrote that in my journal. I was not sure if you were saying I have been a project without meaning to....please text me so we can mend this-please.  I have cared for you & tried to protect you as best as my resources let me & wanted always to help when I was able.

Please please give me a chance

I send you my love for the most amazing person & I do treasure you Please

Please text me

I have not cancelled any Appts PLEASE TEXT ME

I agree to all you have set up to help me and am so sorry it was so rough. Please know I both respect and give you credit for all you’ve done from May to now & your concern is my safety in a situation we all must manage with people angry, tired and maybe even needing money, you wanted to protect me & help me live safe. Please call me when you can. I do love & respect you💜🌻💜💐

It’s been harder than I imagined to allow you to take on the role of caretaking me & keeping me safe. I am so sorry to have such a hard relapse & cause you such distress without you also having my cooperation in what is safe place. Please come & visit me if you can for little while after Thursday’s Dr’s appt. I have signed up for the snow cone & outside drive for Friday. I am trying to live safe & work way to eat healthier w my salads. Please give a chance. We are open for family visits & Joyce’s daughter came to visit her.

I am so sorry & ask you please give me an opportunity to mend what happened. I am unwell still & know that makes no difference I am having difficulties feeling safe here in elevator & laundry area Joyce’s daughter asked me if I was OK I told her I was going back to my room tho I did not tell her how bad I felt over us I was trying to be private about myself

Travis sent me a video of Blu catching frisbees & thanked me for fun $ My friend said I am still good person because I am miserable & feel I cannot be around anyone for what happened I am losing myself & it feels awful I wish I never had this I am someone who tries to be thoughtful when well

I tried to find the stairwell today because the elevator is uncomfortable I only found storage & fire exit even following exit sign I have faithfully taken my meds I feel tired & undone I am sorry for all & that I am suffering so & causing you distress

I do not even know you will see my apology & how bad I feel for what happened If I am undone does saying I do love you mean much or count

Just if you read this know I do care what happens for you & want to protect you then I am unwell so I can just say I’d help you in some way I can The good kind part of me is still worthy of helping please

Just if you read this know I do care what happens for you & want to protect you then I am unwell so I can just say I’d help you in some way I can The good kind part of me is still worthy of helping please

my mother the bully, angry bipolar mother, playing the smallest violin

(I received these 24 text messages from my mother on Friday along with 4 phone calls.  I chose not to respond or pick up the phone as I have decided not to let her negative words affect me while I am at work.  She just doesn't understand that I have to work and am not her personal baby sitter.  She is in a fantastic retirement community that pamper her, but she wants more attention.  All this was triggered by a banana that was ripening.  Sure, it had some spots on it, but you don't eat the peel!)  

I give...I want my car back I want my nest egg back I want my home at 500 W Cartwright Apartment 411 back Can you make that happen by mid August? Also let’s just let go being on each other’s accounts & all the legal roadblocks that landed me in Old Gizzer Hell PLEASE

Living in what amounts to hell with NO choices for quality food or...leaves me NO incentives at all!!! 

This is worse than Camp Crappy You got out every afternoon by 4:30

I get to trade a healthy life style for cold calorie & fat filled breakfast for what once had. I was looking forward to a fun healthy salads filled summer & apparently I get a summer of rotten bananas-rather have blueberries, raspberries, spring mix, avocados-apparently $1850 month mostly goes to overhead around here-not any left for HEALTHY meals. Of course based on Texas ranking #37 in reputed homes for “elderly” I have no great or good expectations-THIS PLACE RATED O ZERO food variety & quality SAME TIRED OLD MENU OVER OVER LIKE BAD SCHOOL CAFETERIA

Who can I trust here? Will you help me or not? Do I need sign an agreement that once out of here I NO longer expect your help? This is a crummy way live & there is no bright “retirement” here-only same less than menu in a tiny room with NO separation from bed

& sleeping & TV which is also crap!!!!!! Nothing mets expectation here-NOTHING!!!!

I’ve had enough neglect & abuse as a child never mind comparing others experiences with mine. It started when I was 2 years old & did NOT let up until I checked out to university as young teen. I PROMISED myself I would not put myself in that kind living situation again-no choice for meals-it’s just check list for crummy eggs or pedestrian cereal-I write other cereal kinds down get same old fake Cheerios & fake bran cereal. Lunch is frequently mystery meat which why listed it as “Meat Lasagna” How about eggplant or spinach is cheap spinach lasagne? Because it is ONE MEAL FITS ALL NO VEGETARIAN COULD SURVIVE HERE-salty mushy & looks like older than Moses. Yes- the menu counts! It’s HUGE in doing what NO LONGER DO PER MULTIPLE DRS INSTRUCTION THAT DOES NOT SEEM TO BOTHER YOU

Out of Fairlife milk I ask for 2% & get WHOLE MILK DO YOU CARE?

PLEASE GET ME OUT OF HERE & FOR ONCE IN MY LIFE I AM NOT GOING TO SMILE BE GOODY TWO SHOES SUBMISSIVE LIKE I LEARNED TO DO W MY MOTHER. I WANT OUT IN AUGUST NOT FURTHER DOWN ROAD WHEN ALL GAINS I MADE AT BS&W GBH & WITH MY DOCTORS GONE!!!!!! UP IN SMOKE

JENNIFER TALKED TO ME LIKE I WAS HER 4 or 5 YEAR OLD CHILD THANKS FOR THAT PUT DOWN!!!!! THIS PLACE IS NOT HOME!!!! IN GOING OVER MY PART IN THIS MISGUIDED DECISION I JUST THOUGHT I’D BE LESS BOTHER & THAT’s WHAT YOU WANT

What I want is my life at SL back You are not there enough to know what it means to me

People of all ages & children

Instead I am stuck here in Old Gizzer Hell Max The Cat or Bell the Dog NOT HAPPY HERE EITHER OR one would not hide away & the other yap constantly IT IS UNHEALTHY TO LIVE HERE & GAVE CHRISTINA & GINA THE CREEPS!

Why? Was this just ez way to get me out of your hair? I am doing all I can to remain healthy against too many odds main one tiny room & poor meals. I am so angry with myself for blindly going along with this fiasco

There is nothing here for me! I am not a sit in rockers like Jennifer suggested or walking blocks front high traffic

I need my life back & trusted you when said similar life here

Do NOT tell me to forget Bob’s heavy handed I will offend Terri if ask specific questions about the quality of food It is IMPORTANT to me & IF Bob is supportive he’d have tried to help find out about food PLUS I am NOT MAKE MAJOR MOVES WHILE TRYING RECOVER To me few hundred dollars putting short legs on my queen bed & new blue shower chair fit made difference & given me time needed to make wiser choice

Trust is gone here You do not trust me about what I need to recover & I do NOT trust this misguided decision to place me in what is NOT working for me What is left of life that nurtured me & helped me to wellness-NOTHING MUCH

I write following as my strengths for my “ Cultural Identity” when still in GBH in patient:

What in your CULTURE is a special support?

My words in my voice-

-Live & Let Live Positive Attitudes

-Welcome those to my life who practice kindness & use kindness to help others

(I hope my angels on earth come to extend me kindness & offer me a home-just like my Mother once threatened she’d adopt me out of family I am willing now)

How can you expand on your cultural identity & resources?

Reach out to those who need extra support (me now) & reach out to those different than myself (like Mary before & Christopher until he moves) & embrace & appreciate our differences

(I feel now I must embrace what is told to me & I am directed to do-few choices & must be approved first)

What community resources do you currently use on a regular basis?

My Apartment Community-not just staff Derrick, Tamara & her 5 year old granddaughter & Misty & her dog Revolver-add to that Millie once Benny still remembered Carlos & Adele R. now moves Bonnie et al about to move Christopher soon move mid to end October, Jill & Guys at Mesquite BBQ, new crew at Kearney’s plus Jaqueline who just met & helped with her Jeep at SL

Apparently you are under the mistaken view I live & enjoy life ALONE!  I see more of these people than many of my family due to long distances. Do I let them go? No-I text & call them

I’d guess that due to out town work, demands of your jobs Bob being one cause Bro’s version is you were working TWO jobs. Either through my own missteps or your own reluctance or both there’s been NO honesty or truth or meaningful exchange except for those rare & welcomes calls driving back from your work in Waco. Why allow me to make vision boards or not give them back sooner or tell me to quit helping you try locate a job. Why are you having to find a job? Because Bob has hoovered through a lot of jobs since 2012 & I do believe this job market has neither recognized or respected his career experience or accomplishments. I in weak moment share my concerns about viable jobs for you both & end up where I am today.

Truth-you have no extra time to help & yet ask how/what do help myself.

You & Bob listed under family support. Then I ended up in glorified “Elder Care Center” not much help here-it’s every person & survivor for his or her self-actually the few men w rare exceptions rather impressive Hermits. That’s how I feel-hermit asked to church study gospel singing etc mostly all white with nice mix Red Hats & rah rah USA 🇺🇸

This is not place welcomes diverse views, beliefs or cultural differences. No accepting as one is....Can you imagine my discomfort living here having to Fake It Until....

I cannot be me

You can be done with me AFTER you restore my nest egg, better match for a home & better more reasonable time & means transportation re shuttle only runs Tuesday & Thursday 8:30-2 & Wednesday in Mesquite ONLY 8:30-11 PLEASE try keep up w all convoluted requirements plus wait time-like all I have to do wait on appointment times open up & then wait to go there & then wait to come home

I believe families do encourage SELF FULFILLING defeats & successes. Mine is with few successes so far

Call me so I can at least know you will work to restore my savings & transportation of course at inconvenience fee & not parked out front of my FIRST FLOOR home. I do not endorse or like elevators I am in home hell without considering impact Covid to quality & wellness of my life

Simple request Call me Please stop ignoring my requests

From GBH Toolkit

What strengths have made you a survivor?

(Of child abuse, physical & PTSD traumas, moving 21 times & just recently twice in less 2 years)

RESILIENCE

KEEP TRYING (like now)

ACCEPTING I WILL MAKE MISTAKES (DPOA, moving near S-I-L  w obvious dissonance between us)

MOST OF ALL STAYING TRUE TO MYSELF

Will you help me fix these mistakes, move somewhere you & I accept (no one else involved) regain my well earned independence financially physically emotionally & for me especially?

I am honoring your request for a break... and due to level of negative communication that is hurtful from you. I am extending the break to Monday

Stacy helped me Thanks for letting me know There will be no further communication from me When you do contact me, please let me know balance of the savings held in reserve for me I expect to be excluded from any contact from you. I got comfort & balance elsewhere

more texting from my mother, I feel marginalized & intimated

I decided to follow my toolkit “Dealing With Mood Stability vs Instability” With all the stress it is NOT feasible to move & start over. Although small & essentially one room living it is well decorated with my art, art I really like such as Bob art & Walk in w downsizing holds food pantry, supplies & storage along w 2 ottomans. I cannot afford to stress my family especially You or myself anymore with what none of us can fix or control (Covid now into 6th day for last 3 cases & 9th day for first round.

My toolkit says following & I need your help to reinforce the steps to sustaining positive with obvious challenges:

“We didn’t develop our negative self-talk overnight....

Negative self-talk can become more intense under stress. Also much more intense when we are trying to make changes...” I am trying-“This is a very common experience! It is good to accept this condition & keep going.”

Right now I will keep going to find the positives where I live now. I do not care for Bingo & Farkle but can keep doing these activities to meet a buddy for dining & shopping later. What to do about my big drop in finances & nest egg? I need know balance of my nest egg however low as better than not knowing. Never mind why you chose this place as that’s done & I trusted you.

Trust me now & give me full picture of my nest egg plus PAY YOURSELVES BACK! Stacy cashed $100 check plus Sadie’s $40 Bday check I completely forgot about because that was several weeks ago. Please please add up all I owe you & transfer that to your checking acct & pay your own bills as that will give me BIG stress relief as until now & for good 25 years I have managed to stay debt free thru totaled car, a number of costly moves & helping You & Bob with start over in Wellington. I love to see You in such a nice home just right for the two of you plus helped Travis & Jordan with post grad classes & Grand Jeep Cherokee for $6000 & still saved $. I am so disappointed I missed my vacation but so did lots of people.

Please just hang there while I try again to overcome stressors of Covid plus recent recovery from severe BP. I had my first flashback/nightmare last night so it is about my indomitable will over unreality

No one can live that for me

It’s sheer hell Just try understand it’s too new, may seem safe to you but all arrive at my door wear masks. It’s hard & trying.

Next part moving from “Problems Orientation” to a “Strengths Orientation” by recognizing my strengths which solidly helped me thru last 25 years including trusting & relying on You & my family network. I am now in a fragile time/place for relapse-I can deal with bills & cannot afford relapse for how much it shatters me & leaves me putting my life together piece by piece & that takes time. It took two years first time. With moving even as an expected positive result-it will take time.

I am tired if not worn out from this relapse & not much for thinking how I will put my life back together again-the reality is too overwhelming & no doctor for 15 mins-50 mins every 2 weeks can do much more than meds & what I miss is CBT techniques what’s current which is why I feel at odds with Dr Chauhan. No current CBT to use as protection from PTSD & I melt away. Meds fine for now

I am double stressed w move & probably need more than 1/2 ginger ale or Diet Dr Pepper which my only pro of day

I got my chicken breast sandwich & plan no more phone calls. I do NOT like having you do CVS pickup or TThumb pick up go. I will work on other ways for that-CVS app & $5 month care pass plus if Walmart or Target delivers groceries after this Covid whatever in place done I will have them deliver My main goal is to give myself choice & relieve you of chores like I’m some old gizzer stuck in the old gizzer’s warehouse. Positive is about having choices that include me.

No topic for text or call is your husband who definitely needs your help & support

I am setting up CVS to deliver here & think Walmart can after 8-7. Reimburse yourselves what I owe you & promised like credit cards, carport & dental bills. I will get my own cell plan when I can so please reimburse yourselves $70 month times X 5=$320 which keeps me on plan until end August. If you want car, we need transfer title etc by mid or 3rd week August. With DPOA really why do you need me. As to DPOA-my mistake- I’d appreciate you telling me before you act on my behalf. I do want to void it-I’ve been working since 2015 to arrange assets inheritable to hit brick wall. Also as to Bob my business is my private area. I honestly do not feel he wants be involved except to limit contact we have. I do not need see accts or paper copies. I trust whatever you say-just need total & final balance on my nest egg & estimate when it is restored to my own savings. I recall only my name is on savings & checking still have same  accts in my name only.

I appreciate & thank you for what you’ve done for me. Your efforts were genuine & you meant a better situation for me. I personally feel trapped here especially to monthly amount I cannot afford & still live comfortably in other areas of my life like saving little at least & $ gifts to family. I feel empathy for all in my situation. There are so many snafus & address missteps,

I do not even know what I do for address change for car insurance & whether I am still liable for Stoneleigh liability insurance. People like me need stability & organized way to logical transition. This has been haphazard & mostly I find out decisions or actions taken later or after fact. There is NO logic to you doing CVS drive thru or other shopping without card or funds to pay. I am puzzled as to why needed move so soon & not allow my lease to run out since it was only 3 months. Whatever counsel you received legally re lease I doubt there will be any negotiation which leaves me walking a lease & not honoring a buy out-my option for keeping decent credit rating gone. I personally feel with your business responsibilities there’s no time for additional help from you.

I DETEST that my dumb ass brother hoovered Bob into rescuing HK. I’d have gladly given you whatever my part was on sale of property & machine assets to locate better work situation for each of you. Also his taking cash had better count toward buyout of his share. He’s big cheat & abusive of others.

I feel like I am in extended family hell & have no plans to kiss his spoiled ass to regain place in his life. As to my angry texts, we have had no family meetings or third party mediation to work out issues & positions that do not find compromise. Texts frustrating ineffective way communicate.

This is truly a high risk relapse possibility for me & know that was not your intent. I credit stress in your relatively new business & Covid 19 inconsistencies plus my relapse as principal drivers for wrecked results. I am not living in a safe place given I need financial balance & no more patch work finances & never ending doctors appts to stop. I need a break. A different more supportive familiar environment & no more contentious interactions. I feel marginalized & intimated. NO ONE HAS ASKED WHAT WILL HELP ME TO ME. We need a break. Let’s just use Covid guide lines & reconnect 8-7 or if need Thursday 8-13

another day of complaining

I checked my Wells Fargo Accts On plus side I have over $6000 in savings & my Retirement Account is holding above $77000 after losses for Covid took down from $90000

I need my nest egg restored to my savings plus for you to-this is tiring to ask like you what want me to owe you for all you’ve been out unless you paid out of that account-repay yourselves NOW b4 GBH & SL bill me. Plus I see NO advantages to you taking my large nest egg away as I have NEVER misused or put myself in financial deficit since 1990.

That is 30 YEARS of managing my own $. Who misadvised you & persuaded you to abruptly move to an inadequate place like this. Do you confuse me with your 97 year old grandmother & the fact that a man I DO NOT EVEN KNOW ILL ADVISED YOU? He needs to focus on his life solely & not pontificate on what is best for people he does NOT know except through opinion of others. I WANT OUT OF HERE AS SOON AS IS FEASIBLE WHEN THIS STAY IN PLACE IS UP-OF COURSE BY THEN WHERE DO I MOVE AS DOORS SLAMMED SHUT & FURNITURE ETC GIVEN AWAY.

The decisions made have cost me at least $20000 by the time this fiasco is done.

I am absolutely OK about moving distance away & expect no help. It appears I need learn use Uber whatever or Lyft find new place-that means new doctors transfer to new bank etc This is a logistical nightmare-Please accept I will not stay here more than time get out Covid hell, find new place & move. I need first floor & May buy small car maybe just another Yaris type car plus washer dryer sofa w accessories There’s move # 3 place advantage-new furniture but where. PLEASE ACCEPT I WILL NOT STAY HERE AT ALL-

DO YOU WANT ME TO EAT TOUGH GRILLED CHECKEN BREAST, SALTY TURKEY PATTY or OVERSEASONED CHEAP FISH OVER & OVER & OVER AGAIN TO AVOID HEART BURN FRIED FOODS LIKE FRIED CHICKEN CHEAP FRIED  STEAK VARIOUS KINDS FRIED FISH BBQ SAUAGE & PIZZA-TODAYS MENU. I am done I will NOT lose my health improvements for this shyster place that did NOT tell you whole story less than shuttle less than meals & absolute claustrophobic tiny room cause they had to have idea about inability to clean & prevent 6 Covid cases

What is balance in my nest egg what’s left of it?

I threw away the tough over seasoned chicken breast-that was it & expect more same tomorrow. This not menu style restaurant It’s limited eat this or...I checked vegetable options no cottage cheese etc But either or....NOT flexibility

I’m done If more same tonight & tomorrow I have 9 days frozen entrees then I will leave here & NOT look back my life in tatters & down by God knows in what formally 99K nest egg when it all...about to save $1000 toward nest egg $100K

I have quickly dwindling finances & NO PLACE TO LIVE

WHY?

My window coverings black out not useable & red light HGTV I had bedroom NO lights or noise. This place is a glorified middle road hotel ROOM WHY?

No HGTV OR RANGE NETWORKS OR PROPER WIFI

WHY? I trusted BS told to me & that’s what got-total BS & shoves here again TOO fast & broke damn lease in place nice

Excuse me-are You aware that “neighbors” do not just move away-they die-which how I got shoved in here!

Mary got great deal vs me & she only pays $158 month

I pay $1850 for CaCa food CaCa TV CaCa WiFi CACA shuttle only available at odd times because they will not pay for full time driver. What from now on until I am out of here thus place is the CaCa in Mesquite Please do NOT compare this to Grandmama’s place-they are all a rip off & IF you’re lucky I will expire from this family experiment. I PROMISE YOU DO NOT WANT LIVE LIKE THIS & NOTHING TOLD TO YOU IS ACCURATE AS MOST OF RESIDENTS CHARGED FOR UNUSED REPUTED ROOMS FOR WHAT?

ALSO THE “OUTINGS” JUST LIKE CAMP CRAPPY!

Again glorified Family Day Care BECAUSE NO ONE COMES AROUND AT NIGHT!!!!

bipolar person venting over Covid 19,

so, the day starts off with these three little text messages along with a slew of pictures of her food.

When about will my nest egg be restored? I agree completely & fully support my in-patient stays at Baylor Scott & White and services from Garland Behavioral Health. I require a second professional opinion & wonder why the abrupt placement in a glorified retirement home? Of course they cannot promote WF as a Care home cause I quote staff member-no nurses work here or a dietitian See cell pic of 7 th day & counting for either fried entree or pasta dish. I am better off in a small apartment community w walk in shower,

ability to purchase my own healthy groceries & drive thru at CVS. For years now I have managed my financial business, been active in tax and financial changes like 2018

Why now are you compelling me to go through you? Again I am NOT 90 or 80 year old female family member. I deserve to choose WHERE I live, HOW I live & manage my own business. Somewhere along way you seem pick & choose what is then forced situation for me. I also do NOT agree about contacting ANY of my doctors without asking me first. What is point therapy when I’m stuck in a human warehouse for principally Mothers-Return my nest egg money now. I have neither mismanaged or misspent any of my money savings or banking or credit. In fact my Visa credit balance is zero. To make it clear why don’t You & Bob seek your own therapy from Chauhan. I’ve been taking care of my therapy/counseling for years without you’re involvement or hands on picking doctors. I quit Chauhan as of today & want no more micromanaging of my life. If you require safe place to live you come here & live. I am done with it will improve cause it’s mediocre services good as it will ever be-it’s like a Club Med incarceration for mostly women. I want out of here-I will add please plus why confuse me with 80 & 90 women in our family-once again I am 71 just now, deserve to live like what I sadly gave up trusting you. Also NO MORE “GRUFF” reality Bob. If you’re “recovery team” my life is sadly reduced to being TV ad “A Place for Mom” Why? Why did you back out if finishing SL because my inclination is to move 411 & start over after  minimum of $10000 spent getting to a human warehouse. Please do not tell me to embrace Bingo & Farkle SS ALL left of my choices for living. It does NOT fit me & Carl & Bob probably fueled by alcohol can imagine their own future in a glorified Adult Day Care.

The woman who plays piano is my height & weighs 250-275 lbs Is that a healthy life?

She is nice tho her husband needs apparently to be here

He sits out on their wraparound balcony each morning Max their cat must be a great support cat & funny He weighs 18 lbs This place as I was told today when trying figure out if go down myself to mark off shuttle ride “Cannot keep us from doing whatever but you’re supposed to stay in your rooms.” So maybe one too many calls yet no paper on door stating what guidelines are tho posted set in elevator & board downstairs telling us to stay in our rooms. We’re not supposed go out yet can’t stop....? Some women here have early stage dementia. How are they supposed to understand a phone call as they are also hard of hearing. Please understand you do not live day to day With contradictions & miscommunications & only one  with Director’s name on it- rather vague. 6 cases but no specific guidelines. Do agree I am smart above average with a grad school education & even I am confused. I saved solicitation to be tested for Covid 19 by a third party lab that will bill our insurance. That seems iffy as know symptoms. Someone w lesser duties given all in rooms only see meal delivery people & once week cleaner-one person OK for my small place but asking a lot for bigger & biggest places. I take compassion, clean my own place except floors & kitchen sink area. I clean toilet while my Lysol 99.99 sanitizer still supply. I do a lot for myself & doubt 90s Retirement TV by way Direct TV plus same old big band 40s music which guess think all we “OLD” Gizzers want for music-do you know this kind of mediocrity is doing me more disservice than....what next will you tell me? Be thankful I’m not forced to live at worse place? That’s like telling children to eat ALL less than meal cause children starving somewhere. This place for me is a COLOSSAL snafu-that’s my reality.

Why is someone w lite duty now not checking temps once day floor by floor? Cause they operate on a shoe string, owner gets most profit b4 even pay employees most part time NO Benefits less 39 hours week probably 20-30 hrs. I’d ask I should I risk myself... which probably explains decline in food menu-new cooks. Like cafeteria cooks only work during meal prep times & same ones deliver.

Did you ask ANY questions about staffing, written procedures for Covid 19 & asked to see copy cause that was Gina’s counsel AFTER all done move here. Bravo! 6 cases Covid & we can ALL do what want per Front Desk

So now I am truly marginalized

It’s early voting & no way vote?

I sent my mother a response asking her why she thinks that we don't have her best interest in mind.  I do everything for her..

I forgive your decisions on my behalf that I know you meant to help & benefit me. I did not pick WF as my place to live & did not really have a pick in counseling. I appreciate all your support through all years you’ve help me navigate BP.

I find myself confused now. Does a challenging Mental Health & neurological disorder warrant placement in this place that is not working for me. I believed what was told to you & what was said to me. I feel strongly this place is more detrimental than beneficial.

It’s down day as you & Bob put a lot into this place & so did I.

This is not a home just a hotel day after day...

Please do not put so much on yourself for this mismatch.

If I have to live here it will be sad one for me. It’s not about your wonderful support over years & now. It’s about me ending up in Adult Care not much choices for what just few months ago I enjoyed-my diverse area , true HDTV, missing all my music -step down for same price. Now I will be challenged to find nice place again plus I feel defeated to enjoy what once had & cringe paying $1850 month this next 11 months & then $1950 for tiny room-Front Desk is right-no real interest in art here. My art table solely for puzzles now. My W D not my own like university-also same issues as w commercial laundry. No regrets for furniture & other items including the car as I truly did not drive much-just seems went from life w choices & especially art-All interest here is on card games, dominoes & bingo. I wished I’d moved to place of my choice but time ran out mid-March. I am not a Texas fan with Austin in my past-not many Texas cities like it & definitely not Dallas area.

I know ALL places have their minuses-I want what no longer possible-walkability in small town in climate that is not so brutally hot a lot of time. Then how fair is that to more desirable places absorbing people like me moving into their nice town. It’s not a favorable time to make stellar move so I get Adult 24/7 Day Care or “After School” Care. I did put you there so guess it’s my turn for Camp Crappy. My perception of DPOA applies/applied if I am incapacitated in all ways.

It’s not on You that choices recently made w home etc not good fit for me.

I love Care & Treasure You & Love & that is what will not change in my life. The World Around no matter our age women don’t find themselves in best places

Just please return my nest egg when you can do it safely

One fact makes me like my Dad is I care more for You than if I ever get $ back

I do love You💚I just am confused why I ended up here?

Also Dr Counselor just wants point by point of my past & no reference or recognition of what’s happening now. I already used GBH toolkits & journal to cover past & requiring my Affirmations journal to cover now

A lot positive I have credited to You

I am receiving great credit news-BB&B will credit my account with $299.81 for duvet set no longer available & WTech will credit my Visa Acct in 3-5 Business days for $49.80 That’s total $250 credit back✅👍

Sorry-$350 Credit back to my Visa Acct since I canNot afford $1850 month here

I apologize to you for going along with $1850 month obligation that my monthly income canNOT cover with scrips Drs co-pays OTC med supplies let alone extra grocery costs, saving each month & giving $ gifts to my family. I wasted $1561 plus $1850 month until....and still need pay whatever coming in from GBH & SL A costly life lesson just starting my 70s Up side is I was not scammed & got something for my $- place is well appointed tiny place & do get 3 meals day delivered whatever quality-some days good some less than-fact pay for overhead for common areas of which off limits for now not much compensation

Plus it’s just cramped from 1100 sq ft 2 pantries plus storage plus my own laundry room to share all like old fashioned dorm. It’s big come down in quality of life for a lot $