MY BIPOLAR MOTHER

I am the daughter of a bipolar mother. My experiences with my mother, family, and friends teach me everyone's reality is different and perception is the friend or the foe of the day. I am hoping my posts give insight to those who are curious and give comfort to those who see a parallel. I invite feedback and look forward to collaboration. It is my focus to spread joy, even on dark days. Smiles can be effortless or the workout of the day. Thanks for reading!

Monday, September 21, 2020

having a tough day at the retirement community

 


Hi😊Flu shot done w piano music. It was sad because most were not able to fill out their paperwork or find their Medicare card. I do not fit in well here just based on what I can do & really need place for those who have what I tackle each day. I am fish without water & wonder where Group homes are fro people like me & my age. I expressed appreciation to the Walgreens team of 3 and thanked them for doing a good deed for us as it was slow for most & took way an over hour.

I patiently listened to music & did stretches & meditation. I cried some as it was so sad to see so many floundering & not wanting to wait, interrupt & ask if go now. Some did not answer when called. Jenn had get them. It’s a high energy job. Lots cannot manage the 6 ft or wearing masks while waiting. The staff here is overworked. Most barely able....Wonder if I will just melt away like most, fall asleep & not know where I am. I am just painting a picture so know what it is like here.

Dorothy’s son does give her nice gifts which I am glad. She wore her new pretty jacket cause just getting flu shot is an event. Times are hard. I complimented both Jenny & Paula who had to “direct traffic”. I worry they work too hard & too many hours. I think Paula felt I’d ask her to do more so I thanked her instead  for her tips. Neither had break this week & I’d call this “flu shot marathon”. All time waiting said at least I did this without imposing on You🍀🍀🍀🍀 Take Care please💜💜🌻🌻💜💜🌻🌻🌻Lots Lysol spray for around in small room for shots.

I am doing laundry today so I can have few days to recoup movies 🎥 & books 📚

 

Please do not spend anymore of my little bit of money on anything I am done with this place The last 3 meals awful I am done with people wasting my money like I have no choices so what’s point Please stop buying me anything It’s just an embarrassment like I am some kind of child Please quit This is no decent life at all Mary is decorating her own place for Fall That is independence I have NONE

 

I am sorry if I offended you. I cannot lie about the mediocre food or less than place. Please just give me a break.

 

Sorry but here it is-I ate only a part of lunch. 5th awful meal. Mushy salty overcooked Italian green beans & turkey patty also salty. How am I supposed to stay healthy & meet my health goals. My mouth is so salty just from “alternate” choice. I once ate no salt/low sodium now I have NO CHOICE. Even the tuna fish salad-3rd time in just few days to get around chicken fried steak Swedish meatballs w salty sauce egg noodles etc. I know cause I tried them. I am asking for baked chicken breast NO SALT SEASONING BUT SALT ALREADY IN CHICKEN! Either carbs or salt. My health is going downhill eating like this especially carbs & not enough fresh veggies if any. I cannot control food offered here even the less than alternates. I am losing out on my health initiatives & agreement w Drs to eat by the “My Plan” w half veggies & do not look forward to meals except cereal & oatmeal breakfast. My hard earned money goes to less than nothing here.

I’d do better in my own place doing my own healthy meals. It is awful to eat salty food & too few vegetables or nice salads. I once bought tuna low sodium before here & sure did not have eat it over & over again. I am now unhealthy because of food served here. It sounds like excuses if I tell dr. I was within good self care & taking care of me to question food here. What can I look forward to when meals so unhealthy & unappetizing. Safe means little if my health declines due to poor food loaded with carbs salt & sugar which I watch & lackluster repeat meals. I only count on breakfast here & break my no salty fat carb foods rule on Friday. I feel few good choices here. Lots salty food & pasta etc. Nothing goes without salt even say no salt which I gave up on tho I am trying for tomorrow AGAIN. What about decent veggies & not same ones most time. Not only food less than no variety & never enough veggies colorful fresh & NO SALT. This is no good for me here & “safe” has little to offer without appetizing healthy food-I will not bother you again as neither one of us can change this place.